Friday 18 December 2015

Winter break

I'm now officially done with Autumn teeerrrrmmmm!!!!!

Well technically my classes had ended last Friday but I still had two submissions this week (both on the same day God bless my soul) so I haven't left the apartment for exactly a week now. Except to go to the convenience store downstairs. Once.

I've basically been living in my pyjamas 24/7, with pimple gel on my face, doing my work in the exact same spot on the couch, which now proudly exhibits the impression of my butt. Clearly my life has been wild lately.

Alhamdulillah I've submitted the last of my assignments this afternoon and mannnnn it's so good to be free! SO. GOOD. It feels like it's been such a long term, but it's kind of weird when I think about it because I literally only had three classes per week this whole term, and they're all 2 hours each. That's nothing compared to other people's schedules! But I don't know, I guess all the coursework's taken its toll 'cause by the last week of term, I was just super exhausted and sooo ready for a break.

So glad and relieved that I can finally take a breather. Now I'm not actually sure whether I want to watch a movie, or put on a face mask and just relax, or read a good book, or start cleaning the house, or binge watch a TV show. Choices, choices!

One thing's for sure though, I'm definitely stepping out of the house tomorrow! Happy winter break everybody!

Tuesday 8 December 2015

About Time: Spoiler alert

Okay, first things first. I hate spoilers and I hate people who give spoilers. I find it extremely selfish and rude when someone watches a new movie or TV show episode and tweets about what happens, because it is hands down annoying and completely ruins it for other people.

So I have to give you a little heads up before you read on: I'm going to talk about About Time. If you haven't seen the movie and are planning to, I suggest you skip this post as it may contain some spoilers.

Don't say I didn't, say I didn't warn ya.


So I finally watched About Time last night. So 2013. I didn't watch it before this because I'd heard mixed reviews about the movie. Some people said it was good, some said it was slow and boring. All I knew was that it had something to do with time travel and I automatically assumed that it was similar to The Time Traveler's Wife so I didn't really bother.

But I loved it. I love the Britishness about it, I love that they didn't use a bunch of famous actors aside from Rachel McAdams, I love how the wedding scene wasn't perfect and was in fact interrupted by a storm. I love the humour. I love how Tim's father told him to live his life in two stages: One, to live through every day like every normal person would; and two, to go back and experience the day again the exact same way but this time, to take notice of the little things around him. And I love the message that it conveyed. Needless to say, I bawled my eyes out towards the end of the movie.

I don't know, maybe I'm just being over-appreciative of the small details, but that's basically how I see it. Perhaps some people interpret the movie differently, and that's probably why they find it just... biasa. But of course, to each their own. This one is very much just up my alley. I like it.

With some movies, I'd usually find what went wrong in the storyline or pick on the technicalities. I know it's annoying, but I get so peeved when the details in movies are so obviously inconsistent. But with this one, I won't even try. I don't want to ruin it for myself.

If you don't already know this about me, I'm somewhat a hopeless romantic (pls don't ew me). I love romantic comedies and I love stumbling upon a good one unexpectedly. Some romcoms are just... sappy. And not in a good way. But it's safe to say that About Time is now one of my favourites.

Here's a quote I rather fancy from the movie to end this ((rather pointless)) post:

And in the end I think I've learned the final lesson from my travels in time; and I've even gone one step further than my father did: The truth is I now don't travel back at all, not even for the day, I just try to live every day as if I've deliberately come back to this one day, to enjoy it, as if it was the full final day of my extraordinary, ordinary life.

Tuesday 1 December 2015

Those Myspace days

Felt like writing something tonight but I couldn't decide what to write about, so I decided to answer a survey. I used to love answering surveys back when I was on Myspace, and I loved reading other people's answers too. Just a silly thing to do, but I figured it might be nice to find this again one day and remember what I was doing/feeling at this very moment.

Have a nice read and, if you decide to not read it, have a nice day! xx


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Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
".... of marriage, motherhood, responsibility... reality." (If You Could See Me Now, by Cecelia Ahern)

Stretch your left arm out as far as you can, What can you touch?
A cushion.

Before you started this survey, what were you doing?
Checking Adele's 2016 tour dates for London! Really really hoping that I'll get ticketssssss.


What is the last thing you watched on TV?
That 70's Show.

When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Just now, at noon. I was heading to uni for my Health Psychology lecture.

Do you remember your dreams?
I do, sometimes. And my dreams are super weird, especially when I'm stressed out. Basically the more stressed I am, the weirder my dreams get.


What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Framed photos of my family, prints on canvas, and two clocks – one for UK, the other for Malaysia :)


Seen anything weird lately?
Yeah I just saw my friends over the weekend.

What is the last film you saw?
Hmm I can't really remember. I've only been watching TV shows recently (Hell's Kitchen or That 70's Show or X Factor). It might have been Inside Out.

If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?
KL or London, hands down. My top 2 favourite cities in the world.

If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
Omg so many things. But first off I would probably buy my dad a classic car and for my mum, John Lewis. Yes, the department store.

Tell me something about you that most people don't know.
I make a lot of lame jokes. I'm quite surprised that some of my friends are just learning this about me. Still funny though.

If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
Put more love in it. This world is just so full of hate now and I think, when it comes down to it, that's what's causing all the horrible things around us.

Do you like to dance?
Yes but I can't dance to save my life. Cries.

Would you ever consider living abroad?
I already am :)


Does your name make any interesting anagrams?
Yeah, it can spell 'Faint'... Not so interesting though.


Who made the last incoming call on your phone?
My friend Husna.


What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
I think it was a software for uni which was giving me such a bad time! I'm supposed to use it for my dissertation and it suddenly wouldn't work on my laptop, which is weird because I've been using the same thing on my laptop for 2 years already. I'd called the uni to fix the issue but they said they'd never encountered the problem before. So I uninstalled and installed it again at least 5 times but it still wouldn't work. I almost had a breakdown thinking that I might have to get a new laptop so that I could start on my work soon. Buttt all's good now alhamdulillah! Finally. Phew.


Last time you swam in a pool?
Ages ago! Probably more than a year ago.

Type of music you like most?
I don't like to answer this kind of questions, it's so hard. Next.

Are you listening to music right now?
Nope.

What color is your bedroom carpet?
Cream.

If you could change something about your home, without worry about expense or mess, what would you do?
I want a wallpaper on one of my bedroom walls, and more plants for the balcony. And shelves. And one huge wall covered in mirror like the ones you see in dance studios.

What was the last thing you bought?
A phone case for my friend.

Have you ever ridden on a motorbike?
Yes I have, but only sebagai pembonceng.


Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
Just had a conversation about this with my friends yesterday! I decided that I'd go with skydiving. It's scary to just be hanging on a rope.

Do you have a garden?
Not in London, sadly.

What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?
"What time is it?"

If you could eat lunch with one famous person, who would it be?
Just one?! So not fair. I think, as of right now, Yuna. She's just seen so much of the world and done so many things, met so many people. I have a lot of questions for her. And so many stories I wanna hear!


Who sent the last text message you received?
The reception, saying that I've received a parcel.

What time is bed time?
After 12am.

What did you do for your last birthday?
I had a picnic at Hyde Park with some friends. Najwa had so thoughtfully planned (and cooked) everything. Such a beautiful, beautiful day!


Do you carry a donor card?
I don't have one.

Who was the last person you ate dinner with?
Najwa and Husna.

Is the glass half empty or half full?
My glass is completely empty. But my bladder is full.

When's the last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
Tak pernah grow a tomato at home.


Are you a good cook?
Whoa now, I wouldn't go that far.

Do you know how to pump your own gas?
Yes!!! I'm a big girl now guys, I can do it without panicking anymore.

If you could meet any one person (from history or currently alive), who would it be?
Nenek.

Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school?
That's all I've ever worn throughout my whole school life.

What's under your bed?
Bags and shoes. Basically the loves of my life <3

Do you believe in love at first sight?
I do. That's how I end up with a lot of the stuff I own.

Think fast, what do you like right now?
Cereal.

Where were you on Valentine's day?
Cardiff. Quite surprised that I could remember this as Valentine's day is just another normal day for me. I only remember this because I can recall walking around Cardiff with my chaletmates and being super confused as to why so many people are holding flowers and balloons, only realising what day it was later that evening.

What time do you get up?
Late. Earliest these days would be 9.30am. I'd say 10am is my average :/

What was the name of your first pet?
Flo. It was a fighter fish my sister got as a party pack from her friend's birthday party hahaha my parents were not amused.

Is there anything going on this weekend?
No plans for the weekend so far.

How are you feeling right now?
Sleepy.

What do you think about the most?
Life, in general. But if I had to be specific, I think I think about the future a lot these days.

If you had A Big Win in the Lottery, how long would you wait to tell people?
Sorry, tak main lottery.


What is the last movie that you saw at the cinema?
Oh wow. I think it was Paper Towns over the summer. I think. I don't go to the cinema here in London because they (relatively) cost a bomb and the popcorn's so tawar, unlike TGV's caramel popcorn! Not even close!

Do you sing in the shower?
All. The. Time.

Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
I don't have a credit card and I don't intend to get/ask for one. How to Prevent Life Debts & Bankruptcy 101.

What do you do most when you are bored?
Netflix and chill at home in my jammies with food. None of that haram double meaning thing going on here k guys!

What do you do for a living?
I study...........?

Do you love your job?
............ What matters is that I'm still alive.

What did you want to be when you grew up?
A cashier! I always found it so cool when I was a little girl. But then I grew up and became a regular on the other side of the cash register. So hello from the other side hahaha

If you could have any job, what would you want to do/be?
I don't know, I kind of want to try a little bit of everything. Why is there no Kidzania for adults? I need to know which job I'd like the most.

Which came first the chicken or the egg?
It's 12.41am right now. I'm thinking way too much about this. Can I not answer this question.

How many keys on your key ring?
Two, I think.

Where would you retire to?
Let me find a job first that I can actually retire from, k? Then can ask me this question again.

What kind of car do you drive?
Kereta kecil warna merah, boleh ku bawa ke sekolah.

If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation where would you go?
Everywhere!

What kind of books do you like to read?
Chick lits. Not very intellectual, but always a good means of temporary escape from reality.

What is your favourite time of the day?
All the time. I love the sunrise and sunset for their magnificent beauty, the early morning for its peace and tranquility (which I'm rarely awake for), the rest of the day for the presence of the sun, and the night for the stars and simply because I get to relax at home.

Where did you grow up?
Setiawangsa, the one and only! #madeinSetiawangsa

How far away from your birthplace do you live now?
6, 549 miles, to be specific.

What are you reading now?
If You Could See Me Now by Cecelia Ahern. In between reading journal articles for my dissertation.

Are you a morning person or a night owl?
As much as I honestly wish that I was a morning person, I'm very much a night owl.

Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
Yes I can! Haha #funfact

Can you close your eyes and raise your eyebrows?
... Yes. Why this question so weird one.

Do you have pets?
Back at home, yes. We have 9 cats. Or 8. I don't know, lost count already.

How many rings before you answer the phone?
Depends on who's calling.

What is your best childhood memory?
I have LOTS. Impossible to pick one!

What are some of the different jobs that you have had in your life?
I've only ever had one job, and that was after high school, at a play centre called Tumble Tots. I love working with kids and I wish to open my own kindergarten one day insyaAllah. Then you can all send your kids to me! Muahaha.

Any new and exciting things that you would like to share?
Boots was having a Black Friday/Cyber Monday sale this past weekend so I just bought myself some new makeup brushes!!!

What is most important in life?
FAMILY. Always and forever.

Friday 20 November 2015

Amsterdam (Part II)

K guys. Vivy has gone to NY and back, and blogged a bit about her trip, and I'm still not done yet with my Amsterdam story. She runs her own company. Has a husband and 2 kids. Hundreds of handbags and shoes (tak relevant, tapi it still scores points in my book). And yet she still updates her blog regularly. How the heck.

Scoreboard: Vivy 10, 000 – Fatin 1 (for trying).

Huh. . . . . That's probably the ratio of the money in our bank accounts.

.......... Anyway. I'm back with more travel tales yang dah basi. Yay!

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Day 2

The second day was a bit more structured and organised than the first. We'd bought tickets for a tour to the windmills, a clogs factory, and a cheese factory. The tour started at 2pm, so in the morning we made a short trip to a market there called the Albert Cuyp Market.

It's quite funny how I'd grown rather fond of markets ever since I came to London. Granted, the markets that I go to bear very little resemblance to the pasar tani's back in KL, but still. Not many people my age would be excited about the prospect of going to a market. Haha.

The Albert Cuyp Market is the largest street market in Holland. It's super long and it sort of felt like a combination of pasar tani and Petaling Street. It had sooo many stalls selling so many different things – flowers, fabrics, bags, shoes, clothes, table cloths, beauty products, food, raw ingredients, spices. Everything!






We walked quite far at the market, but I don't think we even covered half of it! We didn't get to spend a long time there 'cause we had to make our way to the meeting point for the tour at noon.


It didn't take long for us to realise that a lot of the people on the tour were elderlies. Some were couples with babies and there were a few young adults like us. We were probably the youngest adults there who travelled on our own, much to our tour guide's surprise. She was like, "Are you two travelling on your own? How can your parents let you go out by yourselves?? How old are you?" She almost fell over when we told her our age. "I thought you were 14!"

Zaanse Schaans

The first stop of our tour, about an hour away from central Amsterdam, was Zaanse Schans. The windmills place. It's so beautiful and super a-dor-a-ble. It looked like a small village for children, I swear. Like a make-believe little town. It was quite hard for me to take the place seriously and wrap my head around the fact that people actually work there. Because look:


That's our tour guide with the red umbrella hahaha she had her arm up like that the whole day










I mean, doesn't it look like a place where the villagers wear the same outfits everyday and walk around with little wooden baskets and drive around in little red cars?! Cute!

Clogs & Cheese

After the windmills we got on the bus again and drove off to a small cottage where they showed us how the wooden shoes are made. They literally start with a wooden block. Then they just use machines on the blocks to make holes for the feet to go in and smoothen the surface. Easy peasy. 

Of course they're not at all fashionable, but hey, that's not what they're made for. The shoes are practical for farmers because they protect their feet in case they get stomped on by cows or horses. The hooves won't lenyek the farmers' feet as long as they wear clogs.




And after 22 years of living, I finally realised that Cinderella was wearing clogs when she fed the chickens. (Ah-ha moment.)



The clogs factory was situated in a small neighbourhood with the cutest houses I have ever seen. All of them had steep pointy roofs and planked walls and were painted either green or black. No other colour. The tour guide said something about this... they got the colour from the plants, or somewhere or other, for some reason I can't remember. Hahaaa sorry guys.


The kind of house that I'd been drawing my whole childhood life.


As we were walking through the neighbourhood, we reached this one part where the path went under a house (or something like that). The path was sooo small; to one side was a wall and the other was a river. It was pretty cute until we came face to face with a car that wanted to pass through. That was when cute became a problem.

Oh tiny places, how you amuse me to no end.



This is probably my favourite part: To get to the cheese factory from the little neighbourhood, we went on a boat. So. Cool.








At the cheese factory, we heard a woman talk about how cheese was made. Ok, get this: to make cheese, you put an enzyme in milk to make it curdle. Then the curds (the solid part) are separated from the whey (the liquid) and is 'cooked' to make cheese, while the whey is usually discarded. But the lady said that whey is good to drink because it prevents wrinkles. Someone in the group asked her, "Does it work?" She answered, "I guess so, I drink it everyday." Then she asked us how old did she look.


She's 52 years old, guys. Fifty two. I literally thought she was 40 and I was afraid to say it out loud because I didn't want to offend her. So I said 37. When she told us her real age, my mouth just dropped and I couldn't hide my surprise. I was sat in the front row with my mouth open for quite a while.

Whey, sumpah tak lek doh. (Hahahahahahaha I'm sorry I couldn't resist.) I want to look that young when I turn 52! I'm gonna need some of that whey!!




By the whey (last pun, I promise), did you know that smoked cheese and pesto cheese actually taste nice? Smoked cheese actually tastes like sausages that has a cheese filling. We were pleasantly surprised, so we bought both of them.

Literally the only time when it's relevant for us to say 'Cheese' for a photo


It was a 6-hour tour so we were knackered by the time we got back. We had a fantastic day though, and great weather too! Holland's countryside is absolutely picturesque and the entire drive outside Amsterdam was accompanied by goooorgeous views.

I'm so glad that Najwa found the tour when she did (thanks Wa). The tour guide was so friendly and sweet too; she kept on coming to us to ask if we're okay – this was before she found out that we're in our 20's hahaha. When we arrived in Amsterdam that night and were saying our goodbyes, she hugged us and said, "Girls, please go straight back to your hotel, okay? Don't go around the city at this time, it's dark and it's not safe for you girls. Take care."

And that's another thing I love about travelling: meeting people with kind hearts.

Friday 6 November 2015

A screw-up

I am in that self-loathing zone tonight, and rightly so. I hate myself.

2015 is almost over now and if I were to sum it up in a sentence, it's: 2015 is the year that Fatin screws up (a lot).

I did something totally unthinkable today, and while it was not in any way intentional, it was super careless and stupid of me. I have messed up many times throughout my lifespan but today, it was really the icing on the cake la. I'm so upset with myself and I couldn't help but spend my whole evening thinking about the times I've screwed up this year.

I try so hard to be responsible, to do right by the people I love, to do things the right way. But somehow, I always manage to make a mess out of things and disappoint the people around me. Somehow, it seems like the harder I try, the more I mess up. Things just keep backfiring and it's so frustrating.

What am I, Wreck-it Ralph? Brb while I go cry in anger and frustration.

Monday 5 October 2015

Amsterdam (Part I)

One of the reasons why my sister & I were back in London way before term time was so that we could travel somewhere while it was still summer. Initially, we'd wanted to go to Budapest, Prague, and Vienna, but

a) we didn't have much time during the raya month to plan a proper trip to 3 different places,
b) a lot of our friends were planning to fly back to the UK a bit later, and
c) since it would be just the 2 of us, our dad wouldn't let us travel there considering the refugees crisis surrounding the areas.

We've got other places on our To-Go lists but we're saving most of them to visit with our friends later on. So, long story short, we ended up having Amsterdam as our destination.

Accommodation

Our plan was quite last minute, actually: we booked our accommodation merely a few days before the trip. We stayed at QBic Hotel which is located at the World Trade Centre, so I felt quite safe. To me, business area = serious people = fairly safe. Hahaha maybe it's just me though... But the place is really convenient la 'cause it's literally like a minute away from Amsterdam-Zuid station and also a tram station.

It's called QBic sebab the furniture setting is literally cubic. I don't know how to explain it properly so nah, gambar:

Picture credit: qbichotels.com

Our room didn't look like this. Ours was smaller – just big enough to fit the cube (with the bed on one side of the cube, a mini kitchen on another, then the bathroom on another, and then a wardrobe). Pretty cute. But more importantly, the whole place is clean. Even the hallway smelled of sanitiser and the bed was organic. As someone who's always (silently) anxious about bacteria everywhere, I was just so puas hati. My heart was practically smiling! One miiiiinor thing though.......

Picture credit: qbichotels.com

The bathroom doesn't have a door. Just. WHY. But in our room, thankfully the bathroom's side is parallel to that of the bed. So when one of us was in the bathroom, the other was simply forbidden to enter that half of the room. (I would've been more grateful if there was a door though hahaha I felt so freakin' exposed. Now I feel like thanking the bathroom door at home every time I close it.)

Other than that, I loved the hotel. You can include breakfast in your booking but we didn't opt for that. We could have hot drinks (& fruits) as much as we liked, though, which was good enough for an avid hot chocolate lover like me. This is how the lobby looks like:

Picture credit: qbichotels.com

The staff at the hotel are super friendly & helpful too. One of them even helped us to find tour tickets online! So nice.

Day 1

Najwa & I didn't have any solid plans for the trip so we decided to take it easy. Kononnya. We got the 72-hour travel pass (for trams + metros + buses + trains) for €16.50. So worth it, in my opinion. It gave us the liberty to be lazy whenever we wanted.

We went to the central in the morning and rented bicycles to explore the city. Najwa loves planning & organising trips, so our lack of planning for the short getaway sort of threw her a bit off balance in the beginning. Me, on the other hand..... My motto that day was: "The best way to explore a city, is to get lost in it." 

So in other words, YOLO.

Being the confident little navigator that I am (not), at first I thought I could use the canal as a guide or a landmark.... until I looked at the map and saw.... that the canal.... was all around the city.....

So ya we did get lost for a while la. Najwa kept on asking "Kaaak, where are we going?!" or shouting "Kaaak! Wrong way!" Hahaha. I zoomed here and there and paid little attention to where I was going because I was trying not to get run over by a car/tram, or cycle into a car/pedestrian or, more possibly, lose my balance & fall off my bike. I'll tell you something, if you hate driving in KL, try cycling in Amsterdam. Damn stressful I tell you!!!




Amsterdam's really pretty. I love how the same row of buildings have not only different colours, but also different shapes and sizes. Not to forget the framed windows and colourful shutters! So cantik!



After about an hour or so of cycling aimlessly, we then decided to head to the Rijksmuseum (Najwa led the way this time). And discovered the famous 'iamsterdam' sign that everyone just lovesss. But there was a huge event going on beside it at the time and we could only take pictures from a short distance away from the sign. It was super crowded too, so the pictures were all quite pathetic.

E for "Eh eh, comel juga awak ni."

Look at all those humans

F this, I give up

Afterwards, we returned the bikes and headed to Anne Frank's House. The tickets were sold out online, but we only had to wait for about half an hour in the queue so it wasn't so bad. (I've heard that the wait is usually longer than that, so if you're planning to go, try to get the tickets online to save time.)

It was a really good experience; so surreal to be in the exact rooms where the Franks (+ a few others) used to live in hiding from The Nazis. I got goosebumps and I'm sure I wasn't the only one. I hadn't even expected myself to get emotional, to be honest, but seeing the actual place, the handwritten letters & the diary entries was a bit overwhelming I suppose. Nobody deserves to live in that condition. Visitors aren't allowed to take pictures inside the house, unfortunately. So.


That pretty much covers Day 1 of our trip.



I'll write about the rest of the trip soon insyaAllah. My eyes are tired of staring at the screen already. See? Already juling.


Talk to you soon! Goodnight xx